Dear God,
I used to get really anxious when I smoked pot, but when I got high and watched Twin Peaks, I was really calm. Weird right? Fringe is pretty rad. I haven't seen Pete and Pete in forever.
I thought i'd just write my thoughts down, let them flow. I don't even know if you'll read it. So I suppose this is more of a selfish exercise. We live inside our heads, and when the words come out, it feels good.
Frank Zappa: I've never really listened to much of him, but I read some of his interviews, and watched some clips of him, and that guy is a genius, he's an INTP just like me. Him and David Byrne are INTP's. I've always loved the Talking Heads. Its the manic energy, mixed with the absurd, which I love.
Someone totaled my car a few weeks ago, and I got a check for two grand, I spent half of it on a Red 94, 2 door hatchback, Geo Metro, manual. Its fucking fabulous. So i have the other half burning a hole in my pocket. I really want to buy a mac with it. My iMac died over the summer, and that was my creative outlet, it was my spirituality. I made loads and loads of music. I live for music, its a major part of my existence. Existence is pretty fucking amazing. When I was a kid, i used to meditate on existence. I'd ask myself, "why is there anything, ANYTHING at all?" And it'd hurt my head. If there wasn't nothing, there couldn't be something. Very radical shit.
Hugs